After a long, long, LONG conversation with myself, I have decided that I am going to be taking a break from fanfiction. What once was my outlet, my excitement and my joy has turned into something more stressful and a lot less fun. The negativity is too much and I honestly can't handle it anymore.
I started reading fanfiction because of my love for Twilight. I met an amazing group of people during my first few months, and I became glued to the fandom. It was fun, it was exciting and it became the pure essence of my life. I loved it and everything to do with it and it made me happy.
I have very little time to myself these days, and I need to spend it on something positive for myself. Sadly, the fandom is not that place anymore. I'm still going to be writing, but on things other than fanfiction.
For those of you that I have had the pleasure of meeting and getting to know, I hope you know how much I adore you. You know how to find me and I hope that you do. A lot. For those that I didn't know, but may have read my stories, thank you for your support. Letters to Isabella will be finished one day soon, but I plan on writing it all before posting.
Stop bashing each other. Be supportive of others even if you may not agree. Don't write within the lines, use your imagination and become something great. Don't sell yourself short. There is no such thing as a bad writer.
"Celebrate we will for life is short but sweet for certain."

Battle Wounds chapter 18 teaser!!

"My body froze as she took a step forward. Then another. My heart started to pound in my chest as she got closer and closer to me. Her tiny body seemed massive. She moved like a cat ready to pounce, and all I could do was stand there and pray that she wouldn't hug me."

Some pretty for ya.....

Battle Wounds chapter 17 teaser!

EPOV

"Do not enter. That meant so many things to me in so many different ways. Do not enter the room for it's a really shitty thing to do. Do not enter the cabinet that sat connected to the side of the desk. Do not enter the files that rested in the cabinet that sat connected to the side of the desk. Do. Not. Enter."

Letters to Isabella chapter 6 teaser!

"I did my best to please him how he wanted, never once questioning how he held me or how we touched. He fucked like an animal and I tried my best to keep up, panting and gasping for breath as he laid into me. I was honestly surprised by how rough he got. His exterior gentleness washed away and he turned devilish."

Because Rome Rob is my fave.... some pretty for you!

AngryWard FTW

Battle Wounds chapter 16 teaser

"There were nights that I couldn't sleep, that the nightmares were so real I would wake up gasping for breath and fighting for my life. I would sit by my window and stare out at the stars and the glowing moon that illuminated the harsh world so brightly.

I would sit and watch, and listen to my father cry. Each sob that escaped him in the darkness of the night wound it's way down the hall, into my room, and embedded itself into my soul."

Twilight Counsel

Thinking back to when I first found fanfiction, I realize now that I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I started reading a story called Wide Awake, not having any clue that it would be the beginning of something amazing for me. I was hooked after the first paragraph and haven't looked back since!
There are a million and one things I have learned since I began reading and writing fanfiction. Some lessons I learned easily, others I figured out the hard way. I always wish I had someone there to talk to and understand what I was going through.
I've always been one to help people. I jump at the chance to help others when they need it, lending a supporting hand or a shoulder to cry on. When I heard about the Twilight Counsel I was thrilled, because it was just the kind of thing this fandom needs. I signed up immediately and now am waiting for a mentee.
Sooooo, are you new to the fandom? Maybe you're not new but feel like you need a buddy, someone to help guide you in the right direction of getting what you need? Do you have a hundred unanswered questions and feel like you are flailing? Are you confused as to what to read, where to go to talk and make fandom friends? Thinking about writing something yourself? Why not join the Twilight Counsel, and get assigned a mentor that will be there to support you and help you when you need it!!!

The Twilight Counsel

To angst or not to angst, that is the question.....

I finished How to Save a Life last night and was surprised that I was reduced to a puddle of mush, sobbing hysterically, by the end of the epilogue. The angst and heart fail that came from that story was shocking and completely unexpected!

My questions to you is.... do you dig the angst? Does the idea of a story leaving you emotionally strung out and desperate for more make you feel alive, or does it makes you want to stab yourself in the eye with a butter knife?

For me, I love the idea that a story can have such passion and emotion that can bring me to my knees. I love feeling the pain the characters go through deep down in my soul. It's not a good story if I haven't laughed, cried, AND choked back hysterical sobs.

Are you with me? Or are you Wussperv??

Who ARE you??

I have met a pretty large amount of people in the Twilight fandom. I have come to know and adore most of them, sharing in both the good times and the bad. I was thinking about all of you on the car ride home tonight, and the funny conversations we've all had. You all know more about me than most people in RL do, and I cherish that!
It saddened me that even though I consider most of you to be my close friends, there are things about you that I know nothing about. Like your NAME for instance. Where you live, what you do, what makes you happy.
So here's my question.... who ARE you? What makes you....you?
I'll start....
Hi, *waves* I'm Amy (aka Writerinmydream)
I live in Massachusetts and I'm 28. Recently separated from the hubs, I now live in the basement of my parents house while I try to figure shit out. I'm having a quarter life crisis.
I found fanfiction on a random post on facebook and thank the friggin lord every day that I did. Without it, and you all, I'd be lost.
I'm sensitive and emotional, wear my heart on my sleeve and get hurt very easily. I'm also snide and snarky, have a tough exterior and have a hard time letting people in. I will hold you tight until you finish crying, go to war with you if you need me and I'll never tell your secrets!
I have two cats, Bella and Chloe. They are my world and my children. I love them both dearly and would be devastated if I lost them.
This fandom means the world to me because without it and you all I would be sitting alone, in the basement, miserable. I have made friends I know will last a life time and mean more to me than much else!

Okay....your turn!!!!

I'm having one of those days, working on outlines for my stories, when things seem kind of.... lost. This picture always helps, so I thought I'd share!!

Battle Wounds chapter 15 teaser

"You knew!" I screeched, pulling my arm away as he tried to grasp it. "You knew and you said nothing!"

I covered my face with my hands and wailed. I cried for what happened to me and the was I felt suddenly dirty both inside and out. I cried for my innocence, knowing that what they did to me would change me forever. I would never be the same. I cried for the way my father looked at me, and how he must feel, so ashamed of his tattered and ruined daughter.

My heart pounded restlessly, trying to rid itself of the pain that had settled there. The brevity of knowing weighed heavily. I felt as if I would suffocate from the memories.

"It wasn't for me to say, Bella. You had to remember it on your own. I'm sorry!"

Letters to Isabella chapter 5 teaser!

"The crowd parted and when they did what they had been hiding made my heart sink. I swallowed hard, willing myself to breathe as my widened from horror at what I saw.

Long, toned legs, a perfectly curved waist and luscious brown hair that hung in soft curls down her shoulders. I would know that body anywhere. I had studied it and dreamed of it from the first moment I laid my eyes on her.

Bella."

I saw 100 Monkeys a few weeks ago. I'm just getting around to posting the pics now. I'm pretty fail at technology, so the videos are short. This one I love...well...because it's Jackson!!

New blog design deserves a hawt picture to go with it!!

What are you reading???

In an effort to find new and exciting fanfiction to read, I'm asking this question to all of my readers:

What are you reading and WHY do you like it?

There are so many stories in the Twilight fandom that go unrecognized because of their lack of reviews. Why not help eachother to find these hidden pearls and reccomend a few?? Since we are losing so many wonderful fics because they are ending or being pulled, it's high time we found a new set of crack-fics!

So please post what you are currently reading, have on your faves list or have heard about. Lets try to keep it to those fics that don't have a large number of reviews please!

I'll go first!

CODENAME: TWILIGHT
Ho-ly shit. This story is like nothing I have read before. It's the canon characters of Twilight, and they are secret agents working together in a group. There's assasinations, murder, fighting and some really shitty no fraternizing rules! It's hawt, hawt, HAWT! The sexual tension kills me every friggin chapter! Argh!
*If you want to check out this fic it's in my rec's section to the right!! Don't forget to review!!

Who's next???

Anti-Valentines Day post....

For all of you Valentine's Day haters out there like myself.... here are some hawt pics of Jackson/Jasper for ya. These were quite the exciting discovery for me as my obsession with him is closeted! The cats out of the bag now I suppose. Jackson is my friggin hero, some days I'd rather him over Rob....yes, I sad it! Check the pics and you'll see why!!

Seriously? Please STOP being so fucking hot. Those eyes, that jaw line, that long fucking hair! Swoon!!

I'm pretty sure he's trying to kill me. See? Thats the Jasper I loved in Twilight that they fucked up in New Moon!!

And last but not least......

GAH!

Just because

FOR THE MOTHERFUCKING WIN!!!!

Codename: Twilight

I've recently came across a new story over on fanfiction that I think it amazing! It's called Codename:Twilight.  Totally different plot line than anything I have ever read before! The author, secretaddict40, is very original in her descriptions and plot twists. Her characters have great backgrounds and personalities that will make for a very intruiging read! Please check it out!!

Thinking deep here....

TAKE IT OFF! TAKE IT ALL OFF!!!